Broken Brains
I want to curl up in a ball and cry. I have wanted to do that since I was sometime after I turned 13...
at 13- I thought it was just a puberty.
at 15- I thought it was being lonely.
at 17- I thought it was the accident
at 19- I thought it was being fat
at 21 i thought it was homesickness
at 23 I thought it was being unemployed
I turn 25 in October... maybe it'll be gone by then... but considering a relative of mine is old and still on anti-depressants.. maybe this is who I am, and I just have to keep up the good fight.
I have reasons not to run away.
I'm scared to take the pills. I'm scared to go back because he'll give me pills. I admitted there was something wrong, can't I just go back to slaying the imaginary dragons?
at 13- I thought it was just a puberty.
at 15- I thought it was being lonely.
at 17- I thought it was the accident
at 19- I thought it was being fat
at 21 i thought it was homesickness
at 23 I thought it was being unemployed
I turn 25 in October... maybe it'll be gone by then... but considering a relative of mine is old and still on anti-depressants.. maybe this is who I am, and I just have to keep up the good fight.
I have reasons not to run away.
I'm scared to take the pills. I'm scared to go back because he'll give me pills. I admitted there was something wrong, can't I just go back to slaying the imaginary dragons?
3 Comments:
I love you. So much.
girl - writing about it will help, U'll make it through this.
Luv ya, Take it easy and remember, I'm always here to talk to. Hope you know that. Thinking of you
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