Sometimes my bullshit even makes me sick!

You have nothing more to find.
You have nothing more to loose.
Karma- Opeth


Here's my secret.

I am afraid to get attached to anyone.. Ever.. I am scared they will see the cracks in the wall

the vulnerable little girl
isn't intelligent
isn't pretty
will always be fat
no one really wants to be friends with her,
they just laugh at her when she's not looking
she isn't' very funny,
she just makes you think she is


maybe she is an illusion.


He told me I am intelligent, funny, sexy and the coolest chick but that he is too busy. I told him it's all ok..

He's another lesson in a long list of lessons I must learn. Karma is a bitch.. Or its a self fulfilling prophecy..

Sorry dudes.. Tomorrow I will have my confidence back and I'll be kicking your asses again.