Weepy Wisdom

"He who fights with monsters might take care lest he thereby become a monster. And if you gaze for long into an abyss, the abyss gazes also into you."

-- Friedrich Wilhelm Nietzsche

SO this could very well be it... I may not get to write here again
till August... I haven't really wrote much of anything lately
anyway... Just mindless drivel.

The last two guys I dated read this, so I couldn't really talk about
them, my friend landed herself in some hot water, and I couldn't'
really get into that. My job was boring so there was nothing to report
there... some of the other things on my mind just aren't simply
conveyed through mere words....

I am smitten with someone who I know will never return my affection...
I want to tell him, I know I can't... Is that to be considered a regret?

Alice came to a fork in the road.
"Which road do I take?" she asked.
"Where do you want to go?" responded the Cheshire cat.
"I don't know," Alice answered.
"Then," said the cat, "it doesn't matter."

-- Lewis Carroll, Alice In Wonderland

You make me want to be a better person, to strive for something
greater, to be stronger, faster, smarter, and to get in shape. I
never felt so much like a "woman" as I do when I am with you, and yet,
time, distance and my fear of rejection, will keep this all under
wraps until I suppress it (yet a year has not hindered it in the
slightest). I can't write anything else... For I have said to much
already... I sound like a silly girl with a crush. ( you were right
again, I do sound like a teen soap opera.)

"My image is of agony, my servants rape the land
Obsequious and arrogant, clandestine and vain"

--Motorhead

I have to go finish packing... I have to find my Gravol, my cousin,
Jennifer, (hairdresser just got married,) gave me some free samples
from her salon for traveling (so awesome). I have to meet my other
cousin Shannon at 4 she is letting me store some of my stuff at their
place in Sackville. Which is so awesome then I don't have to worry
about finding somewhere to store it for the summer.

Speaking of cousins my cousin Vanessa may be moving back to the East coast for University, though I think she is going to UNBSJ, but she also got accepted to Dalhousie, so that's very exciting.

Oh packing, right, so toothbrush, soap.... hrmm... Apparently it's been around the 20's out there so I am leaving behind the good old winter jacket... If I end up needing on they have Value Villages there as well.

I am very excited to be seeing my parents hard to believe it's been almost a year since I seen my daddy, and his birthday is in two weeks, and with Mothers day coming...

Thanks everyone who reads this... I've had 6815 hits on this page since I put up the counter in the middle of December, which I think is pretty gosh darn cool.

I have a lot more to say (but what else is new) but I really have been procrastinating far too much.

Love you guys, have a fantastic summer.... Start blogs so I can read about your summers when I return... I will try and pop in an say hi over the summer... Who knows maybe I will get to update even more... I am going to try and keep a written journal... I never succeed at that.