I think

I may have a nervous break down....

Halifax

This is how much fun I had!

Wonder

This dear folks is my amazing friend Laura.. We've been friends almost a decade. She takes care of me. Hell of a job eh!

Laura hates having pictures of her on the internet.. So I get around this by taking pictures that you can not identify as her.. Unless you really know her. She has the bizarrest fashion sense.. and this is my prime example.



I will be posting pictures of my trip to Halifax very soon. I had a fantastic weekend.

Sweet

Going to a metal show tonight in Halifax, quite excited to get out of town, let my hair down and just give'er.

I start my new job Monday and hopefully that will clear up all the other stress in my life.. I just have to find a way to get to work from school on Monday Wednesday and Friday afternoons. *YIKES*

Might be seeing these boys do some of their orginal stuff tonight as well.




Need to go home and nap first!

Have a magically wonderful weekend everyone!

Nutso time

I am overtired, stressed to the max.. I have become this sister/aunt figure in my house, I start a new job next week..I hate being an adult and I quit drinking.. Completely.. I have two essays due Friday, going to my grandmothers tonight I can't concentrate, I suck at training the new puppy, he looks at me while he shits on the floor, and it makes me want to throw him in a snowbank.. But at the same time all I can do is yell "No" firmly and point at the mess.. I need to work out something better, and I have to do some research on my Greek essay. I barely talk to my parents anymore because of the time change and I really miss them...It's Grandma's birthday I should get her something nice. I am so anxious to go to Halifax and think about absolutely nothing for a few days.

I do not understand why I have to drive myself to the brink of insanity in order to accomplish some work.. But I do every time.. I mean it usually turns out great but still... This whole raving like a lunatic on the internet is not doing wonders for my image... Then again perhaps it is.. I'm lonely and I realize I am not supposed to admit this but it's true and I am sick of giving relationship advice to people when HELLO I'm not in a relationship so obviously you shouldn't be asking me. I have also realize that most people I know in relationships (with exceptions) are in crappy relationships, and aren't unhappy but portray themselves as, it's like the old gag about the nagging wife.. I've come to realize that guys like the nagging wife, and surprisingly I'm not that kind of girl, so therefore I suck at being girlfriend material and I won't settle for some guy who doesn't suit me just because I am not enjoying being alone. We also grew up in an age of divorced parents (but I didn't) so I think that skews our ideas on relationships, as a society ( I warned you this was nutso time), I also think I need to sleep a lot more, and also came to terms with my being shallow about height and how I hate how short everyone in Moncton is, which also makes me look forward to this weekend.


then brilliantly my luck has changed I found some cashola, on my way to breakfast with Laura, maybe I will have some tea then focus on my research.

Dear Lord anyone who read this thing must think I'm a total head case...

Am I a total headcase?

I'm in Love

Madden!

It never fails

Jamie's variation on Murphy's law:

If I am busy typing something important- the cat will climb on the keyboard and demand loving.
If immediately after coming in from the snowstorm waiting for the puppy to pee- the puppy will pee on the floor
After putting fresh sheets on the bed- you will spill something.
If the is an important lecture and an extra tutorial on the same day- there will be a nasty snowstorm preventing you from attending.
If you have finally regained mental stability after your girly time finished two day prior- it will return with a vengeance while wearing white underpants.
If your friend, you were worried about, calls- you will not be home.
If you planned on going sleep early- you will toss and turn all night
If you plan on a relaxing evening of watching movies and eating junk food- your best friend will have a serious dramatic breakdown
if you skip going with your friend to meet her friend-he is cute and single
If the sober girl joins in on drunken dancing in an empty bar- a cute boy will walk in.
If you get cashback at the grocery store, and really need it- the clerk will forget to give it to you.
If your nipples are tender due to girly time- you will catch your nipple rings on everything.
If my apartment is messy-people will end up visiting and seeing it.

MoW

~She places her head in her palms and thinks about everything that has happened in the last year. Where she was, where she has been, who she has been around, and who she's lost. She knows this is just a fleeting moment of misdirection and uncertainty in her life. Brought on by her monthly chemical imbalance called womanhood. She needs to regain her focus and maintain her goals. She doesn't want to admit she's lonely. She doesn't want them to know she falters. Her heart beats and the uncertainties plague her thoughts, sleep will not come. She flips her hair back with a confident hand, but the unsteadiness in her stomach make her realize she is not the master of her destiny today. Sometimes she thinks she is an amazon queen and can conquer the world, parted crowds with her glare and harsh body language. Yet there are times when the armour cracks and she begrudgingly admits her weakness. Every good warrior must know the limitations to their power. It is the key to their survival. At least that's what she tells herself.~

Girly Time

People drift in and out of our lives, sometimes they are gone for a moment sometimes they are lost "forever." I've experienced this on numerous occasions because of my constant moving, and my inability to stay in touch. I mean to write.. I make a really good effort for a while to call.. but I fail miserably.. I have some delightful excuses but I'll spare you.

I am fortunate enough to have a "best friend" per gender in each province that I resided. I have been out of touch with the Saskatchewan crew. Aileen had moved to Saudi Arabia and Ryan, well that's a really long story. Kenzie and I still chitter, and I'm going to see him next weekend, but Tanya has been in Alberta for a while and I haven't really spoke to her much as of late. Laura and I are still strong, this Christmas we will have been friends for over 10 years and Jeff is still as supportive as ever.

I'm uncertain how an asshole like me managed to make friends with some of the most amazing people on the planet. If I were to sit down and write about every amazing person who is in my life, I would be writing non stop for the next month. I know I'm an asshole, and without my friends and family, I'd be a drift in a sea of sorrow... *emo tear*

BAAAAAAAAAAHAHAHHAHAHHAHHA

Sorry i didn't get much sleep last night, and the last little while i have been rather... but I got some good news last night, and expect more soon. and I LOVE you guys!

Sugarplum

Every time I think she's disappeared and is gone from me forever, she pops up and let's me know she is ok.

I hope you are safe, where ever you rest your head these days.

I anxiously anticipate your call. I want to tell you about the puppy, and the boys, and my school. I want to hear about your boys, and your adventures, and your hardships. I miss you!

love always,

Mistress

Green Purple Blue

"Don't you know there ain't no devil, it's just God when he's drunk."
-Tom Waits

The more I learn each day in school the more disillusioned I become.

Realizing how repressed I was by my religious beliefs.

" That sounded like a prayer ! a prayer in a public school! God has no place within these walls, just like facts have no place in organised religion "
-Simpsons

I was so inhibited by my ignorance and culture I missed out on several interesting things growing up.. Mind you I am learning the shit out of them now!

I watched Coretta Scott King's funeral today on CNN, cried my little eyes out and laughed my butt right off. George W. Bush got his ass roasted by some key speakers, and it was beautiful. There was some very poignant things said about Mrs. King and it really moved me. I hate CNN and their incessant need to gab away about stupid stuff during the live feed though...

I over analyze things far too much.

"Masturbation is like procrastination, it's all good and fun until you realize you are only fucking yourself."

*WHEW*

So I haven't had the gumption to update (yes I said gumption) and I really haven't got much to say.. Or perhaps I have too much to say and I don't want to ramble

But I want to tell you about last Friday

I woke up at 4:30 am, re-read some more material for my midterm, made an amazing breakfast, got to school did some more studying before my first class.

Went to all my classes, wrote my two midterms, went for lunch with friends, was late arriving at the gym. We did an hour and a half (extra thirty minutes because both Laura and I were late). Celebrated by drinking two double vodka with Laura at Duckies, they have a weekly drink special for 2$. I haven't drank vodka since at least the summer.

Fell asleep in the car for 10 minutes on the way home. Came home and was going to nap but the phone kept ringing so it didn't end up happening. Drank a Kokanee while getting ready to go out.

Michelle picked me up at 9pm, we went to her place and I drank an entire bottle of wine to myself. We arrived at the Paramount around quarter to 11, no bands had begun to perform so we went to the O2 and requested some house music.

We danced, and danced and drank and danced.. I consumed 2 beers before the first band started. We made it back just as the first band Flagship Sinker was performing their first song. I went right up to the front and started givin-er. They were a lot of fun, very talented, with a cute lead singer.

When they finished their set, Michelle and I ventured back to the O2 and got more dancing accomplished I was on my 4th beer and we were grooving. We didn't stop dancing until I heard the next band playing... We headed over to check them out.. Big mistake..

Michelle departed soon after and I wandered around trying to avoid listening to the band, I met the lead singer and guitarist from the previous band, swell guys.

I had lost my dance partner but Heather had arrived and I had another couple of beers with her (is anyone keeping track of the ridiculous amount of alcohol I had consumed)

Hope hit the stage and we rocked out, Heather bought me a beer, and we rocked out, I bumped into a ton of people I knew and we rocked out. I met this really cool Stephanie girl (whom i share an ex with) and we rocked out.

Then the show was over, there was "Caawwwwing" and beer fights (spraying beer at one another) Heather was soaked from head to toe. More beer was consumed and then we went to the after party. I ran into the lead singer from Flagship Sinker as well as a bunch of my friends, had some more beer and some fun conversation until 7am. I had been awake since 4:30 am the previous morning... I consumed a ton of alcohol. I had so much fun.

I was home and in bed by 7:30 am and was awakened by my sadistic roommate (not really but for the purposes of this story she is) at 11:45 am as she was leaving the house. I was alert, chipper and rather hungry. Had the most amazing breakfast....

and that was only Friday!

beauty

Supercalifagilisticexpallidocious

In exactly 30 minutes I write two midterms back to back.. I am a little anxious, quite scared and a little discombobulated.

Tomorrow is Megs 25th birthday and they will officially be residents of New Brunswick tomorrow as well. Very excited.

I am going to write my thousand word essay this weekend, which isn't due for two weeks, and commence my 15 page essay on Vincent Van Gogh's influence on social change, or how social change influenced Vincent Van Gogh.

I am also going to apply for a few jobs.

I wrote a couple of songs last week.. perhaps I'll post them so everyone can tell me how awesome/shitty they are.